Je suis étonné que je n'ai pas fait trop mal pour mon essai français.

 

 

今天是個天空悶悶的一天。恢恢的，霧霧的，時不時的雨點，像似戀愛除了問題的少女-本是憂愁的，卻一直逞強，硬要收訖快瀉洪的淚水。但還不錯啦，微風習習的，挺舒服的。難得

自己還蠻享受這種感覺的。=D本來就應該盡情享受大學生的滋味。新莉要加油喔！

Es war schon vorbei und ich lasse es dort und gehe nie mehr zurück.

Kein Zurückblickend.

 

Ich werde immer viel besser sein. =) Nicht mehr enttauscht und gar nicht mehr naive Gedanke. =) Ich bin stolz auf mich! Haaaa..

 

Immerhin war ich gestern bei Goethe Institute und habe ein schönes Gedicht gelesen. Der Dichter ist Erich Fried und das Gedicht 'Zurückblickend' hat mir sehr gut gefallen.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sollte ich jetzt auf Deutsch oder Englisch oder Chinesisch etwas tippen? =) Ich fühle mich sehr gut, wenn ich mit viele verschiedene Sprache tippen oder sprechen kann. Hoffentlich kann ich eines Tages gut auf Italienisch und Spanisch und vielleicht auch Französich so tun! Nur ein Wünsch.. eib Traum.. =)

刚才吃的午餐真的好好吃喔 =) It was quite funny when I was at the Cafeteria as I didn't really understand the German name/description of the Dishes and then suddenly people around started saying "Bambi" and this middle age guy employee (in the queue before me) started flapping his hands on his head, showing ears.. ha.. so cute.. and I realised they meant that it was Deer Meat! CUTE! haa.. I'm starting to discover the cuteness and helpfulness of Germans. =) Dankeschön!

I've been working on my Fuzzy Lab Report since the afternoon, after my lunch and now is already 8.40pm and I'm still working on it.. 我的頭已經，一個頭比兩個大了！ Feeling pretty down about it.. sigh..

got abit bored after lunch..

 

xinli, cheer up k!

 

*smile to myself*

 

darn... why do i have to do such things to keep myself happy.. *$#$@# doesn't seem to help much. AAHHHH..

 

*take in deep breath*

 

"OK! BACK TO WORK!"

I'm waiting to convert my .tif Hostel Application Form into pdf online.. apparently there's abit of problem. I have no idea. It seems to be taking ages and I'm just killing time staring at the screen, visiting blogs, reading blogs. Huijie, Ryan's CF friend (which I fortunately became 見面之交 with when I joined them for the Cheese Fondue dinner months back), has left for London to persue her studies in Fine Arts. Darn cool right? I used to think, 'What if I can go overseas to study my University? What if I were the one to go somewhere far for years? Would I too feel invalid within the boundaries of Singapore while I'm away, as though time freezes my presences locally..' I don't have that kind of financial support back home, else, my brother would have left. And I too, would fly. Fortunately, I'm able to go for an exchange. I have this chance of living as a 1/8 Overseas Student (1/8, as I'll be there for 1 semester. Usually a university course is about 4 yrs, 8 semesters). Don't start telling me about Asia's rising, Asia's the future place to be. Yes, I know that, in addition, I believe I will be spending my later years in Asia, so let me fly NOW. =)

 

A thought just sprang out of nowhere: Is it only if I'm leaving for good, people will start to miss me?

 

I'm not speaking in my own context, but generally. You see, usually you don't really meet ur pri/sec/jc classmates and this duration may stretch up to several months and maybe a few years. BUT, suddenly you're leaving the COUNTRY for some exchange/schooling which the period of activity may be just as long or even shorter than what I've mentioned infront, then suddenly people start saying they'll miss them for the months/years not around in this COUNTRY. Uh.. irony right? It's a 'Didn't meet up for v long time' VS 'Leaving for a period of time (may be shorter than first case, but this time round, you're being informed of the departure'.

 

I find this very ironic.

 

Yeah! Finally done with my conversion! Now I just need to mail them my Status Letter AGAIN! Bet that Dawnie Chia FORGOT to mail it off. Evil Forgetful Tattoo woman....

I take photos of myself, ask friends/family to help me take photo, so that I can have a look at myself at that year, month, day, time. I want something to remember myself how I look, behave when I'm old.. I want to hold on to my memories, photos speak a thousand words, I want to look at photos when 1 day i'm too old to remember anything. Like yf said, perhaps Senile. ok *touch wood*

 

Ok, narcissistic am I. I love myself. Why? because if I don't even love myself, nobody will. And, I'll be the last person on Earth to not love me.

 

Checked up the word on dictionary.com

nar·cis·sism    ( P )  Pronunciation Key  (närs-szm) also nar·cism (-szm) n. Excessive love or admiration of oneself. I'm not being excessive. If taking photos of myself is Narcissistic, then you're so totally wrong.

I believe that those who don't even dare to take photos of themselves, look at themselves in photos truely have a problem with their own self-esteem. Like it or not, we have to accept how we look. I'm not pretty, but I am pretty happy with myself. Although I'm not that slim, my face is not that fair and flawless, legs not pretty .. whatever, I think I'm pretty enough for myself. Beauty is subjective. Through the years, the definition of beauty in the society has been changing. Once, it used to be FAT and FATTER.. like Yang Gui Fei. Then.. it became the THIN and THINNER ones.. Then .. it became the Sporty and Natural look.. And there was a time where Cute = pretty. Whatever. All the Fashionists and their crap to earn money..

 

Admit it, you can't be ALL these. You can only be one or two. You can try, it's good to keep up with the trend, but don't get too sad if it's not up to your expectation.

 

Back to my Narcissism talk, I really don't want to die without knowing how I look/am physically throughout my timeline. That will be too sad. I'm not trying to proof anything, but to talk about putting words like 'narcissistic ,on friends and strangers'. ANd, how are you to judge the level of self-admiration to be crown as Narcissistic? I don't believe you never took self-shots. Isn't the Nascisstic too? *if i really have to use that term YouR WaY* The truth is, somethings cannot be compared. I find it funny if someone says "she takes like 5 self-shots while i only take 1 self-shot.. so she's Nascisstic.." omg..  when did such things become the rule of Narcissism usage?

 

Do not do what you don't want people to do onto you. Stop calling them such..

 

Or perhaps I'm wrong, the world's narcissistic !!

 

THen, if everyone's narcissistic, then who's over self-obsessed since being nascisstic is the equlibrium level?

 

TO make you happy, well, Ms xinli is 1.01% more narcissistic than the world average.

 

Are you 1.02%?

假裝--轉貼

假裝 作詞：大麥　作曲：古皓　編曲：小安∕洪敬堯 呼吸著一種孤獨的味道　心跳在你沉默以後慢慢地被淡忘掉 我笑了笑　反正你看不到　我要的幸福　遺落在你懷抱 ＃當愛失了焦　那些最初的美好　早被你擱在一角 　街上擁擠人潮　走著看著都是催眠符號 　記憶停不了　穿過讀你的心跳　穿過想你的味道　我只想不被打擾 假裝多好　我只要　只想要　再擁有一秒 去相信你的擁抱　一直會讓我依靠 繼續等待　還心甘情願地　不想逃 Repeat ＃ 假裝多好　我只要　只想要　再擁有一秒 去相信你的擁抱　一直會讓我依靠 繼續等待　心甘情願不想逃 ＊假裝多好　依然是　依然是　曖昧的 tone 調 　一個人無理取鬧　兩人世界的煎熬 　我被自己　困在自己設下的　圈套 像是駝鳥　相信時間是唯一解藥　視而不見　傻到了無可救藥 其實早明瞭　你的愛已隨風飄　想要找　再也找不到 假裝多好　我只要　只想要　再擁有一秒 去相信你的擁抱　還心甘情願地　不想逃 Repeat ＊ 假裝自己　已解開冰冷的手銬……

離人節--轉貼 離人節 作詞：嚴云農　作曲：馮翰銘　編曲：Mac Chew 在我們的故事　寫下結局前　請你　聆聽最後尾奏　的音樂 幸福漸遠　心跳漸弱　回音在休止符後停留了　好久 ＊當每一個當下　變成過去後　自由也許是離人們的折磨 　在狂歡時寂寞　從絕望裡復活　才明白愛會隨時間　逐漸成熟 從那一天　原諒你的瞬間　我不過情人節　我和未來不再相戀 愛斷了線　於是我每天都過想你的離人節 不再見面　不代表我　不再對你想念 你是曾經的永遠　會永遠　在我　身邊 Repeat ＊ 從那一天　放開你的瞬間　我不過情人節　除非未來還會出現 愛斷了線　我如何能不再過想你的離人節 希望這是　最後一次　向最愛說再見 也希望下個　永遠　會永遠　在我　身邊

為什麼他每次都送紙星星? 以前是給XX 99 顆,現在是給YY 512 顆.或許是小時候自己就折很多紙星星了..對我而言,單獨的紙星星好像起不了什麼作用了. 心想:沒創意!對每個人都是這樣子..你說是心意,不過,我覺得你拿這心意去做些更有創意的不是更好? =)單折祇星星和鶴,滿通俗的..看不出什麼什麼的. 看得出的話,也抱歉地被淡化了.你會折,我比你更會折!

 

也沒什麼,只是現在覺得他沒什麼誠意..虧我當時還覺得蠻感動的.. 噁*